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Rose petals

just leave me alone

I'm writing this on the spot, in a moment of extreme depression.

=============UNCARING==============

He says he loves me.

I know I do.

But I don't care.

An emptiness inside me:
empty space where
my heart should be

and I don't care.

I can stay cold,
frozen,
icy,
unforgiving,
and do what I know
I should...

I don't care --

or do I?

My shields,
my walls,
my barriers:
too strong.
They tap at the cracks
shove in their wedges,
and I say

I don't care.

Pushing, ripping,
tearing me apart

and

I don't care.


Just...
leave me alone....
let me crawl into my hole
pull blanket over my head

sleep

and never return?

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(2003-06-02, five minutes past noon)

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