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You're in People's Lives For a Reason

Madelyn Gould is something called an Epidemiologic Psychiatrist at Columbia University here in the USA. She has spent the last 30 years researching depression to figure out ways to prevent suicide, which is "one of the most significant public health threats facing young people." Dr. Gould got one of her patients to agree to an interview in her office, with a NY Times reporter there also, who wrote the story (citation below.)

The client is a college junior who had dropped out of high school, survived depression and suicide ideation by rechanneling her energy into "drawing and taking photographs" instead of deciding to spend that energy ending her life by jumping off a bridge. She apparently did all of this on her own, without an active pdoc at the time.

She decided that she did not want her last emotion to be regret: "I learned that what happens in your mind at the point of death, that's your last thought. I've learned I can be OK with being miserable. I tell myself, OK I'm miserable, but I'm just going to wait... I decided instead that I'd rather make more art, learn more, be a part of something."

"And I realized you're in people's lives for a reason. They want you there. It's important to stay."

Dafna is the first name of Ki's therapist, Dafna shows up often in her original journal:

"I missed Dafna again today. And I don't care. I don't care if I never go to therapy again. Frankly I'm sick of it. Not been doing very well. Depressed. I've been involved in several ridiculous arguments/debates in the last few days and people's idiocy/amorality is really depressing... [Dafna] helps me sometimes, but for fuck's sake, four times a week, I don't need that anymore. I still have tons of issues but they're things I'm dealing with on my own and she isn't really helping with."

2006-09-21 (Ki used the same icon in her LJ entry; she is sixteen and in Israel, also a high-school dropout, now enrolled in a private Special Ed school for At-Risk kids, studying for entrance exams qualifying her to start a college career in America. Which she goes on to do.

Today the Fall Quarter at Evergreen is in full swing, freshperson classes for the 2020 graduates have started. When I move permanently to Olympia in four days, I will certainly meet students downtown, in addition to the graduates I already met last October 2015.

Ki's class was the Class of 2011.

The parallels caught my attention: one student was saved by her art, including photography; Ki was also into photography (had been for years) and was studying figure drawing in April 2008. Each overcame educational hurdles.

I think each one of us around Ki's table are --- and were --- in her life for a reason. And in one another's.

And we are all enriched as a result.

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NYT ref is a story by Gabrielle Glaser, "Illuminating Suicide's Shadows", 8/21/2016
Helpful book: Kevin Hines writes Cracked not Broken: Surviving and Thriving
after a Suicide Attempt
. Hines is bipolar and did jump off the bridge, now has made a documentary film out next year.